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Gasping for air in the (sub)conscious

Life is pretty fucking insane, man. ……………………………………………………………………………………….. I’m not someone who gets really superstitious about, or obsessed with, dreams. I do not believe that my dreams secretly hold the key to me as a person, to my life, to my … Continue reading

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Digging Up Dark Roots, Part One: “Trigger Year”

Currently I am seeing my therapist three times a week. Three times is a lot. I explained to her that I feel a substantial amount of shame over seeing a mental health professional this frequently. “It is like my seeing … Continue reading

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Trees, water, with a side of existentialism&nihilism

You are standing in the forest. You smell the wet soft wood, the mud. Lichen grows on fallen trees in delicate ripples, moths flutter past your eyes. You are standing in the forest. The trees start to thin as you … Continue reading

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(something nudged me back to you)

  Dear WordPress, I have missed you. I took a long time away from you, and figured that I would just keep journaling and call it quits on the whole blog endeavor. But increasingly over the last few months, I … Continue reading

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with vigor

I stare at a brick wall speckled with turquoise paint. A plant in a vase drapes its long limbs over a black pipe that runs across the middle of the wall. And I think to myself– I haven’t written a … Continue reading

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But The Stings and The Blows, They Rage On In a New and Terrifying Way

I am all at once tired, weary, sad, tearful, angry and frustrated. But in the midst of all of this, even when I almost want to, I cannot stop chasing after God. The last several weeks have been difficult. I … Continue reading

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A summary of a few kicks in the buttocks

Dearest fellow bloggers, I have not written in a while, so I feel I must first provide you with the briefest synopsis of the past few weeks of my life. Basically, the last few weeks have been characterized by depression … Continue reading

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