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“What Else but The Self?” — A poem

“What Else but The Self?” A poem by T. LaReveur   I picked up a cheap copy of “Self-Reliance and Other Essays” by Ralph Waldo Emerson the other day it caught my eye the term “Self-Reliance” and I thought how … Continue reading

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Digging Up Dark Roots, Part One: “Trigger Year”

Currently I am seeing my therapist three times a week. Three times is a lot. I explained to her that I feel a substantial amount of shame over seeing a mental health professional this frequently. “It is like my seeing … Continue reading

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In turn, what a great gift I have been given

This feels like the beginning of a difficult season for my family. My little sister is having a busy and stress-filled senior year of high school; Dad is continuing to push through work and battle financial stress; my older sister … Continue reading

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Bittersweet Notes

It is difficult to differentiate spiritual growing pains from suffering. The past two months, God has been wonderfully present to me. I told a friend that it felt as if my life was a jar of play-dough and God was … Continue reading

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But The Stings and The Blows, They Rage On In a New and Terrifying Way

I am all at once tired, weary, sad, tearful, angry and frustrated. But in the midst of all of this, even when I almost want to, I cannot stop chasing after God. The last several weeks have been difficult. I … Continue reading

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i’m thinking about taking a bunch of klonopin because i dont have the emotional/mental stamina to show up to work tomorrow. my thinking is not a clear. bad sign. i want to either take a bunch of klonopin or make … Continue reading

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